Wanna know something ridiculous? I’d already started saving for your Christmas gifts back when things were still okay between us. Back in August, September – back when I never thought you wouldn’t be a part of my December.
I wanted to roadtrip together, and I kept a shitty job so I’d have the money for us to go. I was gonna get you to that Hawks game, and we would share a New Year’s kiss in Chicago.
I absolutely adored you. I was gonna put my needs aside for that because that’s just the kind of thing that I do. Then you left and left me reeling. With tired eyes, I emptied that Chicago fund and bought my mom a new set of earrings. I wasn’t about to take our adventure with somebody else. And God knows I’m not cut out to take on Chi-town by myself.
But yeah, this is me…who you decided to pass on. This is me…the girl who loved your flaws and accepted your wrongs. Wherever you are for Christmas and again on New Year’s Eve, there’s no way that life alone could treat you sweeter than life with me.